It's a big deal when it comes to my mum, every single darn thing is Big - like mother's day, mummy's time, mummy's orders/advices, mummy's big day etc etc..
So much for loving my mum yet i hadn't been a faithful daughter to help with house chores or lighten her burden, yes its very bad.. i know and another thing, i hadn't plan anything for her yet in due to the busy week of back to back events but its okay, i will get her something soon :)
Anyway, Happy mother's day! You've been such a great person, definitely more than just the word "great". There's actually no words to describe how wonderful you are to have brought us 3 kids into this world and mold us into who we are today.. my mum, my bestfriend. She's the best person on earth i could relate to ANYTHING, my bf, my problems, my work, my self-esteem, confidence - she's like a all-rounder wonderwoman who has just the right words/right methods to cure my headaches and drown my sorrows in any and every possible way thus the endless love and care from me. I love you much much, wondermama.
Well, 1st week of May has indeed brought me a lot of excitement. First, with the munchkin as always, 2ndly, with my pet bro's aka the Bullies! and third, its about all the things revolving in my world now, the word Love..
3bullies and me the-one-who-gets-bullied :)
After dinner with the bullies, i was kidnapped to my brother Shaunie's hse @ Damansara. They played Mahjong while i feast my eyes and concentration on Counter Strike. hahhaaha.. yah i am a CS addict when i was younger, yet i died miserably in the game but after few more tries, i was sustaining longer and longest in the game :) *peace*
On another note, the ex-bf. It makes me wonder why he always has to pop up all sudden out of the blue asking me the weirdest questions and intrigues me to something that i don't even know what, leading me blindly to some clueless things and then snapped, oh its nothing. HEY, WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO? The first time, he was overseas, out of the blue, he gave me a long distance call, and saying things which i don't even wish to mention but, heck its over. You said you broke up before you went overseas but truth is you were still together and you called me behind her back and it seems like a 2nd confession story from you to me.. Hey, what is going on, really?
Trying to still figure out why he called, the conversation then lead on to something more personal and so I told him Oh its good, i hear you're attached and very happy and all. Keep it up... suddenly the long silence and he said "You only hear what ppl say, you think i'm happy but deep inside me i'm not.. do you even know how i feel etc etc etc" hey.. i'm just trying to be polite? and its only from others that i know about you like the fact that you're attached but i don't dig details cause heck, why would i need those piece of info? We no longer keep in touch and who cares what news i get, and how on earth am i suppose to know that you're unhappy? wait, the Ultimate question is..
Why are we in the first place still having this type of conversation? WHY?
Then, due to his royal highness self esteem that i burnt badly, i guess he was mad at me cause i was very cold, so much so he DISAPPEAR-ed..
Then one fine day, well, just few days ago, he APPEARED again. Messaged me asking how am i and all.. fine i replied.
Then the golden question of his came out, he said he has something in mind and he wants to ask me, so go ahead, ask..
"Were you scared the time when i was angry that i lashed out at you the other time.." (this case was 2-3years ago by the way)
I gasp.. i never see this coming but fine, i replied saying YES i was. and he said...
"I'm really sorry.."
Inside my mind, I'm like........ oh okay, its over? So, i forget about it.
Today, he appears again, and he started saying he has something that STRIKES his mind again, and as a concern friend, i asked, what is it? He then said, oh somethings are meant to only share with friends, ex's and gf's.. they are all different and thus only certain things i share with a certain someone bla bla bla..
So i replied, i know there's difference between all you mentioned, just that i don't understand why would you need to say it knowing i would ask why and then telling me your philosophy of differences of people you treat in life? Hello? then heck, just don't say it, right?
And he replies, okay then, i won't say anything.
Now this is when my blood boils, but i burst out laughing instead, i bet you would understand why.. Man, what a day to keep my emotions busy.. LOL :)
Sigh.. man with his royal highness ego. Just don't get it why are you still this way after so many years, probably its just You and that is why i had to change.. Now, i'm sorry for saying this.
I gotta run now, time to meet my munchkin for a Date! Something special to end my long long weekend :) yeay! Feast your eyes with some photos, sorry for making you all READ - oh so much! Huggies.
I Like to copy him - his cute ways.
and the Loving ways..
My love philosophy is all about sharing 1 precious place for my heart with another - now that its inside, its sealed with the word "Fragile item - handle with care" :)
Lots of Love,
Lil3pees!
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