Sweet, Sour, Spicy, i hate Bitter the most :(

Tears could be the cause of many reasons, one of it that i bet many have tried before.. a broken heart. Sometimes when you're too overwhelm with sadness, bitterness.. you'll just tear your heart out, those scenario is beyond words to describe and it hurts, so bad. so very bad.

While i hear a sad story occurred to a very dear one, Tears just trickled down my cheek. He's someone that i would protect and give anything if i could afford to.. it bitters me when something unpleasant happens, what more, a broken heart. Sometimes when you give your all, you try not to always hope for a return but we're just human beings, with Emotions that we can't help it sometimes.. it can control and destroy a person's everything and to an extend when it gets out of hand, it triggers other negative feelings inside you that holds you back from moving on, from being YOU and you start drowning yourself with any possible options to get rid of the Hurt but it doesn't work that way.. Time is the ultimate healer besides the other options.. really.

Anyhow, i for one thinks that Life's most educational way of learning is being in a relationship, one of it - being couples, being in love with that One person.. Love is everything when you're in the peak of your relationship, you feel World is just about the Two of you, everything seems so right and perfect, you express love like there's no tomorrow but, reality is, a healthy and sustainable relationship, no matter how loving you can be.. the package of ultimate sweetness of life comes with Challenges.. These continuous challenges may spark of emotional swings which then leads to falling apart, give up, let go, move on.. but it will definitely make you a better, stronger person in the long run.. Thats why people say, it's better to have Loved and Lost than not to Have loved at all.. i second this saying.

As much as i try not to speak bout the story that shaken my day, i just wished it didn't happened. I love so much to see you both still together and i can see you both want the exact same things from one another, why can't you see it? Why can't one of you tolerate, why view tolerance as a threat he/she will ask for more in future.. Why?

Maybe you both did made it all clear,

Maybe you've talked everything,

Maybe you think you've done your best,

Maybe you don't think its worth fighting for,

Maybe its just true that you felt Different already,

Maybe the break up is the only Right thing you think,

Maybe..

But deep in me i trust, you both make compatible loving couples, Why.. because you both Love each other so dearly but of course, what i say is bullshit if you don't feel the same way as i do.

Why put self interest so high up till the other party gets Hurt?

Why don't you put yourself in His/Her shoes each time you want something for yourself..

Human are selfish by nature..

BUT,

Relationship SHOULD not be.

It has to be Sharing, Loving, Caring, Understanding..

Revenge in a relationship, its Not even an applicable action.. please.

When your decision to do something is Rejected by the other half, think about it, He/She might be Hurt with your decision, Don't take it the negative way and negative thoughts that He/She is trying to CONTROL you.. but i guess the Controlling word has always been a trend to you both thus it has eaten and drained you both up in the long run and Now, it explodes.

I for one believe, you must Respect each other's space and Understand your partner.

Giving you the best example of my own,

Munchkin never liked me Clubbing, yet i Go.. he doesn't SAY NO because he respects my social circle and ME most importantly, so he would voice out his feelings of discomfort and to not make me upset and Him worried, he made Rules for me when i go and i give in by Obeying to it and so we reached a mutual understanding.

Although i admit, 10times i go, 9times i break the rules, either i couldn't hear the phone or i danced too much to remember to check my phone. He obviously gets upset and will throw moody faces and words because he thinks i Forget about him when i'm there having fun, he's here very worried of me. I put myself in his shoes, every time, and so when i'm back to his arms, FIRST thing i must do, to comfort him.. show him you care and make him understand you Remembers him and most importantly Do not Lie, i would tell him YES, i was dancing so much i didn't check my phone.. i'm So sorry but you're Always in my mind.

But of course, there's no point saying Sorry when i always repeat my mistakes, and fair enough i got scolded badly from him because of this.... so how? Do i choose to feel sad why he controls me, start feeling frustrated because of him?

No.

I have chose to control myself, by replying his texts at least once or twice to make sure i'm safe, i would promise myself to call him after i'm done, to also assure him and keep him less worried.. I will keep in mind, he's paranoid because he cares, he loves me too much to allow any bad things to happen so when i think of that, i feel loved and i will improve myself to ensure he's also happy in a way.

This could be a simple challenge but trust me, at the end of the day, its your Actions that speaks, and if i do not change, he'll just be More upset, it'll keep bottling inside him and I will not feel any better, so why don't I do something before any worser things happen?

You can never have Best of Both Worlds, sacrifices are essential when the one matters most is the other Half, not my clubbing scenes..

Thus back to the story, you've been together far too long to not know the basic fundamentals of a relationship yet, you both lost control and perished in THIS that may cause a Lifetime Lost..

Is it worth it?

Basically, if you Do not treat each other the way you want to be treated, you take for granted the things that the other half gives or provides, you'll lose him/her eventually..

Love is like a plant, you need to water it, fertilize it and provide sufficient sunshine to grow it but some of the days you "forgot" to water it, you "thought" the fertilizer is enough, you "forgotten" when it rains too hard, the plant will suffocate and die.. and when it does, you sit and cry and wonder what has went wrong while all these while, you had taken for granted, YOU thought missing 1-2days of watering or fertilizing will be okay.. but its Not that way, what more Human that has real Feelings..

Bottom line,

If you decided the break up is the Only thing that makes you feel better, you think its the best choice because you can't stand or tolerate things that has happened between you both.. i will honestly say.. go ahead.

Just remember, there's not always a Second chance. Once its gone, it will be gone for good and it'll never come back.. It's not easy to find one who Loves you in return and maybe even more than him/herself..

I've witness a regret that can never be undone..

Don't let it be You.

With all my blessings,

Lil3pees.